Well... first off.. let me correct my spelling from last entry. I was supposed to make a 'move' on the girl.. not a movie. Course.. a movie with the chick would have been way more interesting ;)
So I'm in a mental state of something which I cannot explain right now. For some reason.. part of me REALLY wishes I could go back and redo some of my previous years... fix some of my mistakes.. do things where previously I had done nothing. Another part of me wants to kick the ass of that first part, get rid of it completely, and focus on my future. And part of me wants to forget everything except the current day I'm on, and screw anything else. Talk about your mind dragging you in different directions.
I'm also starting to wonder if I'm even ready to plunge into the whole 'dating' thing. I'm 24, with basically no experience of dating (save a few attempts that could almost be called failures). Everytime I try and set myself up on a date, something comes up that gets in the way. Whether it be work... of I get super nervous about screwing it up... I can't say exactly. Things just don't go as planned. Maybe I never will be ready for dating... I mean I sometimes feel i'm wasting their time even making the attempt. Which is just sad... Why do love and emotions have to be so darn difficult..?
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suchiiban) wrote,
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